UncleMike
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In & Out= frustrationBeen racking my brain, one of my sponsees is an "in and outer" just did a 3 day "H" run. He makes it for a few weeks and then sets himself up for a fall, this time it was to pick up a demo disk from this band he has been thinking about joining. One of the members is dirty and he knows it. We talked about the fact that this is trigger land for him and yet he still set him self up. Clames he just went to pick up the demo and the guy offered him some black tar. Well it was too much for him to face.
I just got through with relapse justification with my Prop 36 group and talked to him about it and he sees everything in hindsight, yet when it is happening he is pure Limbic brain (addict part of the brain - the part we in AA etc call "our addiction") He reacts to the emotion and doesn’t take the second to bring it forward to the rational brain so he can think it through. (Play the tape through to the end result).
It is most frustrating, it’s like having a kid, I want to unscrew his head and pour some sober thoughts in there. But I can’t. He calls me almost every day and we talk for some time but when the shit hits the fan he only calls after the slip.
He had a year at one time an, and that freaked him out and that was his first slip. He goes out just before or after his court appearances or contact with his PO. Seems success is a real scare to him. (Sound familiar?)
Anyhow I just needed to vent about it and this seems like a safe spot to do it.
Thanks for letting me share
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soberskater
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 Mike, I'm sure my former Sponsor and family share your frustration! I would do good and then go off the deep end... The thing that is different this time is, that I really want the sobriety and recovery for me! Plus finding SMART and REBT ( Thanks "Uncle Mike" ) has made a huge differnce for me. It has been a breath of fresh air I desperately needed! I guess it comes down to really working ones program, commitment and a true desire. Don't give up on the guy Mike, I'm thankful for the frustrated people who never gave up on me... JMHO 
Roger "Doc." 
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UncleMike
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Thanks doc, I was just venting, I spent time with my sponsor today and he knows the guy too.
I'm not about to give up on him
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soberskater
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 Mike, no problem... You know I'm always here. I had my own rant and venting temper tantrum in the recovery discussions area today. Let's just say I was off the hook for a bit... 
Roger "Doc".
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soberskater
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Well my skater Bro's, I have no room to talk and nothing to hide. I have to admit I relapsed and got myself in some trouble. It sucks that I have to be so stubborn and thick headed that I have to learn everything the hard way. But, then again I have to remember this damn disease is cunning powerful and baffling. Oh well, thank God I at least made it back...
Roger "Doc".
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nukedog
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We're all one bad decision away from our own f-up.
We just have to keep making good decisions.
Like today, I had to keep myself from buying a flat screen TV I don't need...
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notsobad
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i need a sponsor
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soberskater
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| notsobad wrote: | | i need a sponsor |
Me too...
Roger "Doc".
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nukedog
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My wife keeps me in line...
I was proud of myself today, I went into Best Buy, looked at that LCD TV.
And walked out with my money still in my pocket.
Eh, not quite a substance abuse problem, but an addiction nonetheless.
( It didn't have that great a picture anyway, and it wasn't widescreen. )
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