Sober Skaters

soberskater · Head Ex-Lush In Charge

I Am Your Disease

I hate meetings. I hate Higher Power. I hate anyone who has a program. To all who come in contact with me, I wish you death and suffering.

Allow me to introduce myself. I am the disease of Alcoholism and Addiction, cunning, baffling and powerful. I have killed millions, and I am pleased. I love to catch you with the element of surprise. I love pretending I am your friend and lover. I have given you comfort, have I not? Wasn't I there when you were lonely? When you wanted to die, didn't you call me? I was there. I love to make you hurt, I make you numb you can niether hurt nor cry. You can't feel anything at all. This is true glory. I will give you instant gratification and all I ask of you is long-term suffering. I've been there for you always, when things were going right in your life, you invited me. You said you didn't desrve these good things in your life.

People don't take me seriously. THey take strokes seriously, heart attacks seriously, even diabetes they take seriously. Fools that they are, they don't know that without without my help these things would not be possible.

I'm such a hated disease, and yet I don't come uninvited. You choose to have me. So many have chosen over reality and peace.

More that you hate me. I hate all of you who have a 12-Step Program. Your program, your meetings, your Higher Power... all weaken me and I can't function in the manner I am accustomed to.

Now I must lie there quietly. You don't see me, but I am growing. Bigger than ever. When you only exist, I may live. When you live, I only exist. But I am there... and until we meet again, if we ever meet again, I wish you death and suffering.

--Author Unknown.

Roger "Doc". Cool